hair

[vuzh]

i noticed this morning that in my little receding hairline area that there are about three or four brand new ugly little squiggly hairs.
where did they come from?
i just assumed that once the hair was on its way it didn't make any kind of progress after that.

and speaking of hair...
i told myself before the summer started that my hair was going to get cut short.
i made it as far as cutting half of it off.
i used to have a very long ponytail.
now, i can't seem to bring myself to cut the rest off. i don't know what i'm afraid of, but it's unmistakably fear.
it's not fear of looking dumb, because i already look dumb. cutting the useless stuff off will have to make things somewhat better.
i'm almost 30 for chrissakes, white adult males with long hair -- how much tackier can you get??
especially with aforementioned receding hairline.
but i'm afraid.
what am i afraid of???
somewhere in the back of my psyche the "Samson" legend is lurking its ugly self.
if i hate me with short hair, i can always grow it back! so why hesitate?
eventually my dislike for how i look with the goofy long hair will outweigh my fear, and it'll be gone.

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[sleepsleep.livejournal.com]

photograPH?

[vuzh.livejournal.com]

as soon as someone takes a picture o' my ogly arse!

actually, the hair wouldn't show up in a photo, since i wear it in a ponytail all the time.

go back to here and imagine two feet of hair behind me, and that's what i used to look like.
http://www.kuci.org/~justin/bedtime/lonely.htm
afterwards imagine it shoulder length, in a ponytail, and that's me now. oh yeah, also no beard. and older. but wiser.

[sleepsleep.livejournal.com]

ok... there is no beard in the photo though! I confusado.

[vuzh.livejournal.com]

pero si hay una barba!
es que la barba es escondido atras de mi dedo gordo.
todo esta bien. :)

puede ser yo necesito mandar un foto directamente a su 'e-mail' dirreccion?
si o no?

[sleepsleep.livejournal.com]

si, allegrasleep@hotmail.com yo regreso ahorita de un camping trip en Beaver Creek, CO. bbrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

[vuzh.livejournal.com]

no conozco a beaver creek. es bonito aya?
como fue el trip?
estoy buscando un foto especialmente para ti.

hasta luego.

[sleepsleep.livejournal.com]

Muchisimas gracias senor vuzh. B. C. es muy bonito, pero estaba lloviendo por todo el tiempo. Mi espanol es horible, necesito practicar.

[harebell.livejournal.com]

personally, i think you look very attractive with shoulder length hair. so there.

[vuzh.livejournal.com]

aw, you're just saying that 'cause i'd kick yer butt if you didn't.