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Aug. 13th, 2001 10:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vuzhi was thinking earlier today that my problem is that since my breakdown that i've been especially disassociated from everything, that things are just floating by, and that i'd better try to reconnect, try to fix that...
but i thought about it some more, and i realize that being disconnected from my surroundings isn't the same as being disconnected from reality.
i also realized that i don't need to go "fixing" anything, i can just accept myself, and let all the other crap take care of itself.
why on earth would i want to reconnect with all of my surrounding bullshit? let the shitstorm rage all around me, just let it go.
why do i think that how i am isn't right? i can be as disconnected as i want to be. i could be an apparition. why is that wrong? answer: it's not. the part of me that thinks there's something wrong with that is operating on assumptions based on conditioning from a system that i know doesn't work.
but i thought about it some more, and i realize that being disconnected from my surroundings isn't the same as being disconnected from reality.
i also realized that i don't need to go "fixing" anything, i can just accept myself, and let all the other crap take care of itself.
why on earth would i want to reconnect with all of my surrounding bullshit? let the shitstorm rage all around me, just let it go.
why do i think that how i am isn't right? i can be as disconnected as i want to be. i could be an apparition. why is that wrong? answer: it's not. the part of me that thinks there's something wrong with that is operating on assumptions based on conditioning from a system that i know doesn't work.
