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Protocol Day 4, Dose two
Aug. 15th, 2018 09:28 am9:25
~0.1g, 1/8 ts.
9:30 Mild disorientation, and slight anxiety ramp up. Remembering to breathe and relax. If I do this at work again, I need to remember to take the dose a little further away from caffeine.
9:54 Feel simultaneously relaxed and edgy. On the edge of anxiety, but things are gonna be fine.
10:13 Yeah, things mellowed out. Feeling pretty relaxed now. It's weird how tensed up my body gets all the time. Like I know this, but I need a slap in the face all the time to remember to relax it. Ha.
11:30 A bit of euphoria. Also enjoying looking at textures in the plant, which are much more interesting to look at than the unimaginative art that we make here.
11:45 Also easily distracted by things, just like the first dose. Keep hesitating while on my way to do something. Smells are more intense, which is unfortunate because a lot of things here at work (especially outside) do not smell very good.
12:07 Might go on a walk? Would be better than just wandering around this shithole with nothing to do.
1:30 Immediate effects seem to have mostly tapered off now, same timeline as the first dose. Feeling generally good, but I'm listening to a radio show about climate change and of course that's just a depressing as hell topic.
3:00 Keep thinking about how I haven't made music in a long while, and feeling bad about it, but can't do anything about it right now. Not super melancholy about it like I have been, but it is popping into my head. I suppose I should just go ahead and think about it and not be afraid of thinking about it, like can't ignore it, that's not going to make me feel better.
~0.1g, 1/8 ts.
9:30 Mild disorientation, and slight anxiety ramp up. Remembering to breathe and relax. If I do this at work again, I need to remember to take the dose a little further away from caffeine.
9:54 Feel simultaneously relaxed and edgy. On the edge of anxiety, but things are gonna be fine.
10:13 Yeah, things mellowed out. Feeling pretty relaxed now. It's weird how tensed up my body gets all the time. Like I know this, but I need a slap in the face all the time to remember to relax it. Ha.
11:30 A bit of euphoria. Also enjoying looking at textures in the plant, which are much more interesting to look at than the unimaginative art that we make here.
11:45 Also easily distracted by things, just like the first dose. Keep hesitating while on my way to do something. Smells are more intense, which is unfortunate because a lot of things here at work (especially outside) do not smell very good.
12:07 Might go on a walk? Would be better than just wandering around this shithole with nothing to do.
1:30 Immediate effects seem to have mostly tapered off now, same timeline as the first dose. Feeling generally good, but I'm listening to a radio show about climate change and of course that's just a depressing as hell topic.
3:00 Keep thinking about how I haven't made music in a long while, and feeling bad about it, but can't do anything about it right now. Not super melancholy about it like I have been, but it is popping into my head. I suppose I should just go ahead and think about it and not be afraid of thinking about it, like can't ignore it, that's not going to make me feel better.
