oh no, not another... !

yeah, looks like i'm making yet another mix CD for all my peeps.
so far it rocks, but they always do.

anyone who missed my last mix CD, (which is of course everyone reading this right now) it was the best mix CD ever, and it was called "c.'s nearly perfect mix". you COULD still get your copy if you email me your snail mail address.

AAAaauuughhhghgh! Gizzard-Butt just brought in a half-eaten mouse, all meowing proudly!
~~INTESTINES!~~ mmmm.
(tosses dead rodent and bad kitty both out de do')
'scuse me, gotta wash me hands.

anyway, as i was saying, if you wanna copy of the last one, gimme your mailing address, (vuzh@peakpeak.com) and you gots one, er, if i like you that is. it's an alternately depressing, funny and groovy mix. could be yours today. no ginsu knives.

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my mode of defense is withdrawal.
i prefer not to fight.

this puts me in some non-optimal positions at times, especially in the case of not finding out information that might aid me. then again, in certain circumstances, more information might not be the best thing for me.

it doesn't matter what anyone thinks of me, i can be a ghost passing through their lives. having no effect. or having an effect which is an illusion.

the thing that i need to remember is that safety is the main illusion. nothing is "ok". things may be calm, but i ain't "safe"

but i don't have to be a part of the fray anymore.

i wonder often if i am making the best decisions.
but then i tell myself that the past is done, and doesn't matter, it's what i do NOW that counts.