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my mode of defense is withdrawal.
i prefer not to fight.
this puts me in some non-optimal positions at times, especially in the case of not finding out information that might aid me. then again, in certain circumstances, more information might not be the best thing for me.
it doesn't matter what anyone thinks of me, i can be a ghost passing through their lives. having no effect. or having an effect which is an illusion.
the thing that i need to remember is that safety is the main illusion. nothing is "ok". things may be calm, but i ain't "safe"
but i don't have to be a part of the fray anymore.
i wonder often if i am making the best decisions.
but then i tell myself that the past is done, and doesn't matter, it's what i do NOW that counts.
i prefer not to fight.
this puts me in some non-optimal positions at times, especially in the case of not finding out information that might aid me. then again, in certain circumstances, more information might not be the best thing for me.
it doesn't matter what anyone thinks of me, i can be a ghost passing through their lives. having no effect. or having an effect which is an illusion.
the thing that i need to remember is that safety is the main illusion. nothing is "ok". things may be calm, but i ain't "safe"
but i don't have to be a part of the fray anymore.
i wonder often if i am making the best decisions.
but then i tell myself that the past is done, and doesn't matter, it's what i do NOW that counts.