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[vuzh]

i find myself in turmoil at work, when working all alone. turning over problems over and over again. turning over stupid things i've done over and over again. i need to get better at catching myself doing that, because every time i catch myself at it, i realize i've been tormenting myself for quite a while... stomach muscles all knotted up, jaw clenched. then i accept everything, and try to be present, in the now, and everything relaxes by itself. then a little while later, there i am gnashing my teeth again.
i've got to find a way of reminding myself that i just don't care about any of the crap that i keep wanting to torment myself about.

AAAUUauaaughghhghhh!!

so anyways...
("there's this green muck on my boots")
i finally finished the mixdown for the last ambient song about when i went insane, so it's mastering time! first full length set of recordings i have made since i went off the deep end and stopped recording almost a year ago.
YAY ME!
unfortunately, i've realized i now need another $600 of equipment to finish it, and upgrade my catalogue to CD. ssssnnnarrrhh.

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If we lived nearby...

[gael.livejournal.com]

...we could pool our resources and create a killer music studio. *sigh*

Kinda ironic to get stressed out by an ambient song, dontcha think? ;-P

I look forward to hearing your tunes! Any clips posted yet that I could sample? :)

Re: If we lived nearby...

[vuzh.livejournal.com]

it WOULD rock to live nearby someone to occasionally pool resources with. small town life sucks.

i never get stressed by the music, and hardly ever even the making of it, it's the distribution and other stuff i don't like.

check my next post for an mp3 link.

[ex-shaggy817.livejournal.com]

mp3!mp3!mp3!

[vuzh.livejournal.com]

see my next post.
thank you los angeles! goodnight!